Thursday, May 10, 2012

Don't Know What To Do...

Today is day 59 of DH's deployment and it's the first time I have cried my eyes out for other than the fact that he's gone. He is going through some really tough shit and really lost it today during our Skype call. Either he lost his phone or someone stole it, so he has to get another one for starters. Then he thinks someone stole most of his anti-depressants and medical refuses to give him a refill and thinks he has been abusing them. I KNOW that't not the case because he commented to me a week ago that they only gave him 7 on his refill and we both thought that was odd. He didn't check the new bottle until his first bottle went missing so he had no idea that medical initially gave him 30 pills. He was threatening not to go to work tomorrow because if he did he was sure to get into a fight with someone. His outburst took me straight back to last year when he was so ready to throw it all away. I don't know what to do and I'm really freaking out. I know my husband and I know how quickly his moods can change, so I don't want to contact someone and get him into a bigger shit storm in case he has a miraculous recovery, but I feel so helpless. He hasn't been like this in so long now... he was doing amazing last week and now it's all gone to shit. I can only pray to God that he is taken care of and gets it back together. I don't know what I'm going to do today... when this stuff happens it consumes me.


  1. I am so sorry for everything that you are going through.
    You need to be hugged about twelve times.

  2. Oh shit... I don't even know what to say! I pray that peace comes to him and he finds someone to talk to that will go to Medical and get this cleared up. There HAS to be a way! That way he can get back on an even keel and you won't have to worry. But it will work out.. it WILL! Just keep your faith and try to wait it out. I hope you hear from him tonight and things are better. ((hugs))


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